My whole life I had unconsciously been integrating sexuality and spirituality until one day I found out that it had a name, Tantra. 

At sixteen I bought my first book on integrating sexuality and meditation called ‘Cultivating Female Sexual Energy’ by Mantak Chia.  At that point I had never had sex, and the little I had read about it was from very dry books that I had found at the local library and scanned mischievously with a few friends in dark corners and from various articles in Cosmopolitan magazine.  This book was different. To me, this book was magical. It spoke about how a woman could activate her sexual energy through meditation and channel it through her body.  I covered it like a textbook and although I did not understand most of it, I knew it was important and I began to experiment with the circulation of energy in my own body in the ways that the book suggested.

At seventeen I made love for the first time and this began my process of discovering the wisdom of the body.  Always a scientist of sexuality, I unconsciously practiced Tantric meditations with my lover.  We would often meditate before lovemaking and activate our senses using blindfolds.
                                      
Several years later, life called me to London where I studied Movement Psychology, delving into the way we use our bodies and how that connects with our unconscious patterns.  This profound work brought me to a deeper understanding of human behavior and it opened me up to the questions: “Who am I without the mask?” “Who am I without the identification of who I ‘should’ be?’”

Although I was fueled by these questions from my studies, for me there was a vital piece missing… the Divine.

I began to search out for greater understanding of my experience of the Divine. I studied Holographic Repatterning and Reiki Healing and as a result developed a greater sensitivity to energy and ‘reading’ body-messages. I found that these body messages held the keys to what holds us back.

When I completed school, my hunger for more was so overwhelming I went on a worldwide quest for truth.  I traveled through South-East Asia diving into any spiritual practice I could find.  Buddhist monasteries, Zen centers, hippies on mountain tops…all of which offered me something valuable, none of which seemed to integrate divinity with lovemaking.  I wanted nothing more than to dedicate my life to meditation, but I was not willing to give up the one thing that I instinctively knew held the bliss of life; I would not become celibate. 

On and on I traveled, until I found myself in India at a commune started by the Indian master Osho. This was a spiritual community where there was no ‘right and wrong’, there was only meditation. Finally, I had found a place where people were living authentically and I felt at home for the first time.  All were free to discover their own truth, led by an inner knowing that was strengthened by the meditation practice.  Every aspect of life was seen as an opportunity to move away from illusion into truth: I had stumbled into a ‘Tantric Community’. 

I loved the meditation techniques that I learned there and soon was asked to use these to guide hundreds of people in the main hall.  When I returned to America, almost a year later, I brought these revolutionary practices to the local gym, groups of friends, my mother…and through all of this I knew even more awaited me.

I never foresaw that the depths of my Tantric exploration would find me here in Los Angeles. It is in Los Angeles where I met my beloved teacher and friend Dawn Cartwright, founder of The Chandra Bindu Tantra Institute, whose presence and dedication to truth has served as a light on my path.  I completed a teacher training with Chandra Bindu and apprenticed with Dawn for several months while beginning my own practice.

Since then I have studied with many experts in the field of Tantra including Bodhi Avinasha and Rundy Duphiney.  A vital part of the work that I share with my students is the importance of Tantric Relationship, and I have deep gratitude for the teacher who gifted this understanding to me through my studies, Bernie Prior.

For me, the most important part of my journey has been falling in love and sharing Tantric Relationship with my partner Martin.  It is through our lovemaking that I have truly begun to integrate all that I have learned and from this overflow of loving, I share the Tantric journey with my students.