I wanted to share with you an account from a recent participant of the Awaken Weekend...
"Before taking the Awakened Weekend workshop I didn’t think I could handle being this exposed in a room full of strangers. I’m definitely the shy type in groups and I wasn’t sure I knew how to let all of my armor down. I don’t even think I knew how tough my armor still was. It’s always been hard for me to feel completely safe in my body, safe with men, safe in general, I guess. I’ve lived a lot of my life waiting for the other shoe to drop. Not fully believing in myself. Not fully opening to or trusting anyone with my whole heart.
All I've ever really wanted is to feel the opposite of this. I've wanted to trust, wanted to surrender and feel the depths of an intimate relationship yet with most people I've hidden my insecurities, hidden my fears, especially from men. So much of me has been hiding in the shadows, feeling the
need to protect myself.
Nothing could have prepared me for what I experienced at the Awaken Weekend. It feels like someone turned on all the lights in my house and I'm walking through rooms I didn’t even know were here. Over the weekend I got the chance to do what I so rarely do. I got to let all of me be seen, I got to fully let go in the presence of others. I got to let go of my need to look like I've got my “shit” together all the time.
It was so powerful and so healing for me.
I got to hear what others in the group were afraid of and watched as they let go too…it was so incredibly beautiful and sacred to see and be seen this way. it opened my heart to so much compassion for myself and for them.
In one exercise I got to feel all of my resistance spring up in my body. It was pretty scary to feel all of that building up inside me. I allowed myself to feel it so fully it was like I was possessed by it…and then after a while I felt it all slowly slip away. So slowly that I could feel my entire body little by little completely surrendering.
I’ll never forget how that happened and I don’t think ill ever be the same after that experience. Now I know why they call it sweet surrender!
I didn’t know how much I needed this. I had no idea that by being this exposed and sharing this much of myself was the way into feeling safe. I am so inspired to continue to learn more on this path, to give more of myself to others, and to love more freely without holding back."
~Rachel Shultz, Artist, Mar Vista, CA
*If you are interested in learning more about the Awaken Weekend click here: www.TheAwakenWeekend.com